If this day were mine

If this day were mine I'd paint a second coat of primer on my red-no-more walls.

If this day were mine I'd take my beautiful bike out for a long spin (or even a short one at home on the trainer).

If this day were mine I'd eat breakfast wherever and stay there until whenever.

If this day were mine I'd swim for two hours.

If this day were mine I'd read my crisp brand new book.

If this day were mine I'd be putting together my 20 Pilates routine for my class.

If this day were mine I'd be doing Pilates.

If this day were mine I'd be teaching Pilates to a bunch of mini chinnies.

If this day were mine I'd be anywhere but here.

If this day were mine I'd be climbing with Chris.

If this day were mine I would make a nice dinner that took way too long.

If this day were mine I'd see my brother and give him his gift.

If this day were mine I would be in line at the Post Office to turn in my passport application and swear my oath.

If this day were mine I would shop for V-day presents for the girls and my brother.

If this day were mine I'd go speak to the woman sitting in her office at the art department at UNM.

This is my day. I chose to work for money. I chose to get on a bus and get off at the correct stop. Tomorrow and the next day and the next...Tonight I will choose a different future. Someday, my day will be what I want and not always what I desperately need.