Kristen is...
...unhappy it's Columbus day but happy the girls get a day off of school to spend with their dad.
...homesick, but wishes she knew where home was.
...sad for Estee.
...having nightmares again.
...scared that the stress is actually posing real physical health problems.
...capable of love.
...indulging in a bean burrito from the burrito man for the first time in months.
...waiting for an important text message she knows won't come.
...incapable of understanding the situation when you break the lines of communication so fully.
...unable to move forward.
...in need of more water.
...questioning human ability.
...already looking for Christmas presents.
...pondering the future.
...dumbfounded by people's reaction to the truth.
...hurt that she's never the one.
...appreciating the fine art of good pumpkin cheesecake.
...appreciating the fine art of reciprocal friendships.
...quietly distancing herself from a support system she will someday desperately need.
...aware of the fact that she knew full well the amount of stress she would be putting
herself through but thinks that the people around her somehow had no clue.
...unappreciatively aware of the burden she is.
...running through the last year in her head over and over again ad nauseam.
...never going to get tired of the Tool songs she relentlessly plays, but was sick of Sarah
Mcglaughlan from day one.
...wondering what is going to happen next semester when she's taking 18 credit hours and
is covered under her work's health insurance.
...sick of jumping ship.
...physically ill.
...breathing through music.
...missing Che.
...realizing that misery is optional as an adult.
...going to try to drag someone to Salsa with her.
... proud of certain friends for trying out dancing.
...never hoping, only doing.
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Well said.
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