Chris really likes the fact that I'm not a "preachy" person, and that I don't use my hella busy schedule to rub peoples' faces in the fact that they can't hold down a part time job and go to school. Well, I am a preachy person, but only in my head and on my blog. I like writing down my schedules and all the things happening in my life for the simple way of remembering how crazy I was when I was in my 20's (conjure a picture of Kristen in her 30s/40s, etc.)
Although I am painfully aware that people are different and that not all of them can pack their schedules so tightly, or even half as tight...I still resent people who complain about not having time to show up to class or do a homework assignment... However, sometimes those people have other really huge problems that they never tell you. Or they tell you when it's too late to help them out...
On the days when I feel dizzy
I pop a bottle of fizzy
Soak in a bath with bubbles
and sing away my troubles
Yoga helps to clear my mind
Missing thoughts are what I find
Every day I get closer to my dreams
I get farther away from my 20's and teens
I'm torn between carpe diem, cease the day
and years and months and bills to pay
I'll spend 5 minutes giving you a peak
while you tell me I'm crazy, for still more I seek
At this very moment I am an employee at three places and own my own business. Two or so years ago I pinned up the phrase "Don't let anything slip or you risk letting the everything fall." Basically I figured if I failed at being perfect at one thing, I was doomed to fail at everything I was doing at the time. Gee I hope that's not true. This week while trying to be productive at CNM, I forgot a client who sat and waited for me at Open Gym. Gee wiz. I write it down, I see it for a whole week, and when the time actually comes to get it my car and leave, I'm lost. Well, I set an alarm this time.
The point is, one can only be so effective while officially working 56 hours (more I would guess), an average of 14 at yet another, and squeezing in time for my devoted clients at the other. And now, because I couldn't wait another year or so, I had to go and open my business early. Did I mention that I'm taking a 3 credit hour class at UNM? It boggles my mind when I get As and Bs on everything I do in that class. I've only missed one class and that is what hurt me the most. I lost 28 points on my test because I didn't show up one Friday. So, while it may be hard or feel nearly impossible to "not let anything slip" it's actually exactly what I have to do...
I risk so much in failing in just one piece of the puzzle. A full schedule is NEVER an excuse. If I told Bryan that I was an hour late because I was tired from all the work I do, he'd fire me. If I miss another appointment with a client, I'll not only lose the client, but I'll lose any respect I held there...and possibly the job. And as was clear this week, if students even think for a SECOND that they are your second priority (which they are not) they will go straight to the dean of the program. I'm happy to say that upon visiting my 4.5 hour Saturday morning Kinesiology class, my dean gave me a glowing review. I'm proud of what I accomplish every day, but I know enough NEVER to use my schedule as a weapon, an excuse or a way to get away from problems in other areas of my life.
I make sure I'm home at night. I make sure to see my family on the weekends. And I'm fast losing a grip on keeping in contact with my father. Another crack in the pavement. One way I'm failing. And I should probably be getting on every other little thing I need to do in this very moment because my every waking hour I'm at CNM I'll be meeting individually with all 48 students over the next two weeks. That will force me to do all of my work before and after I'm officially at work. I still have two other jobs, lectures to prepare, countless fitness classes to teach, three families, a business to get moving, and two homes to maintain.
At this point I never say yes to anything without checking my schedule book first, because I don't trust my memory; And I haven't run/biked/swam for months now. The closest I've come to a treadmill was moping the tracks on the three at CNM. My business planner thinks I'm stupid :) (little misunderstanding on the LLC status) but my facebook status gets updated almost every day ;)! Funny enough, I've seen my friends more in the past couple of weeks than I usually do and Chris now gets to go climbing on a regular basis (this does wonders for our relationship).
Monday:
7-8am Yoga at Stone Age
830-945am Dr. Goodman (every other Monday)
(every OTHER Monday I either visit my house or get some homework done)
11-1150am Exercise Physiology at UNM
12-5 CNM (Clean, meet with students, write lectures, grade papers, fix/copy tests/quizzes, meet with superiors, balance check book :), respond to emails, manage workstudies, turn in timesheets, substitute classes, etc. etc.
(Once every two weeks or so I'll meet with my business planner at the SBDC for an hour or two, and once even three hours)
Tuesday:
6-8am Physical Fitness I at CNM
8-5 CNM
(sometimes have clients at 4/430pm, may hold kids yoga classes from 830-1030 and extend CNM hours)
(This week I have work training from 10am-12pm)
530-630pm Body Sculpting at Stone Age
(Once a month staff meeting at Stone Age 8-9pm)
Home: Study for Ex. Phys., home
Wednesday:
(I'm planning on my kids yoga classes being from 630-10am.)
11-1150 Ex. Phys. at UNM
12-5 CNM
530-950pm Business of Personal Training at CNM
Thursday:
6-8am Physical Fitness I at CNM
(one Thursday out of the month I attend my manditory IDA meeting from 9-10am)
(planning on teaching kids yoga from 830-10am)
(on the 29th I'm taking of from 930-1230 and 2-430 to take business classes at the SBDC)
8am-2pm CNM (or 1030-2)
230pm Client at Open Gym
330-5 CNM
530-630 Yoga at Stone Age
7pm Home, catch up on work, study for class, business work, etc.
Friday:
645-10am Stone Age desk duty
(Planning on teaching kids yoga from 630-10am)
11-1150 Ex. Phys. at UNM
12-5 CNM
Saturday:
8am-1220pm Kinesiology at CNM
(Usually work at Stone age afterwards until 7or 8pm)
(if not working, spending time with family, catching up on work, cleaning my car/apartment, etc.)
Sunday:
(Planning to teach kids yoga from 10am-230pm)
(Usually spend time at a personal training conference or webinar to complete my 60 hours manditory continuing education credits-I have 2 years to complete it)
(This month we have to find time to clean out the storage unit to save money and find a place for all of Chris' 100s of bio related books)
At some point I have to take the GRE and apply for grad school. I have no idea when that is going to happen. Maybe I should be studying or working now instead of blogging :):):).
I counted up the hours I have been officially at CNM working and it came out to 46 hours. I have to somehow make up for that 10 extra hours by working at home, getting everything done during the time I AM there, and working some extra time on Saturdays after class if I can.
When all is said and done, I'll be officially on the time clock for about 66 hours a week. But this doesn't include my class at UNM or hours at home I work. That's the name of the game.
Go on. Ask me how I really feel. I fucking dare you...Not feeling so hot tonight. So here is the list I can make public. The other is under the strictest of lock and key. Sorry ladies, no can show you that one.
